A question about self esteem. I was very pive, apologized for everything, never thought of my self (cont)?

It makes sense to anybody who's ever been in your position, which should be about 80% of the crowds. In any case, just do the world a favor and be yourself. Cut the bullshit out, and don't care what other people think. At the same time, if you aren't obnoxious about sticking up for yourself then you will also do well. Just remember that there will ALWAYS be people pointing fingers at you and talking up and down about your flaws. Ignore it. It truly doesn't matter. I was pond-s during my high school years, but once I got to college I became a campus-known popularista with plenty of friends and a greater sense of self--ALL of that came when I became completely and totally comfortable with myself. BE YOURSELF, you'll find a group. It always always works.